I am a simple person. I have simple wishes, simple desires, and simple dreams. I have loved one person with everything my simple heart has to offer. So why is it that my life is anything but simple?
Bah. Stupid question. I suppose I'm feeling sort of angsty today. That's what happens when I don't get much sleep. But i have today all to myself. I'm hoping to practice the guitar a little bit later on..and maybe even draw something, if my imagination feels up to it.
My White German Shepherd puppy, Yuki, was spayed today...so she's kind of....out of it. Poor girl. At least she's getting some sleep. And the cats don't have to hide so much right now.
I was really irritated with Kimo today. He didn't really do anything I guess, but he was grouchy, and I hate being snapped at. I dropped him off at the auto shop to pick up his always-something-wrong-with-me car. There goes our savings...it was really inconvenient timing what with Yuki's surgery and all. I actually thought we'd be able to put some green away this month. Oh well. Maybe next month will be better.
Our relationship is just so strange. We get along so well, and we almost never fight. We are always laughing together and having a good time. But it is so tainted, because we both know he just can't love me the way he should. I'll probably never be more to him than a glorified best friend/maid/ and all around good time girl. And me? I am just crazy for him. He makes the sun come up in my morning. All it takes is to see him walk into the room and suddenly everything is that much brighter. But he is my moon at night, too. Sometimes just looking at him is enough to break my heart all over again. It never even has a chance to mend before something else falls off. Stupid cheap heart. i need to trade it in for a better model. one that's stronger. One that doesn't fall madly in love with someone who could never love it back.
Crud., I'm being angsty again. *sigh* I need a healthy distraction. Maybe I'll draw something after all. toodles!
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